The Golden Glow

Radiance through Gene Key 24

I’ve spent 2 months with Gene Key 24 looking through lenses of addictions and patterns that have been playing throughout my life and really trying to understand lovingly where I am right now with my truth.

Addictions

• career growth  

I don’t need to keep changing to create opportunities for growth, 

I can actually stay in a company and be the impact for change & growth.

Took me a while to recognise this.

• acceptance 

I don’t need acceptance from others to feel complete, 

I just needed to accept my reality as it was right now and let go of everything else. It was in the embodiment stage of doing this where acceptance from others found me. 

It wasn’t forced. 

It was by just living as me.

This was a very special healing moment in a close relationship too.

A lot of reflection and deep diving into where I am to find my truth again

“I can’t trust myself with others or in different environments/situations that I have never experienced before” was a belief that I was addicted to and noticed it kept on repeating in my life.

I actually uncovered this belief further in a beautiful workshop by Michelle Payne “the pleasure map” and it showed me gaps in how I felt with pleasure in my life, worthiness, allowing & receiving love, communication, attracting, manifesting and my emotions…

A lot right!

It also showed me my truth, that I can trust myself. I just forgot again. And that’s ok. By contemplating and reflecting always helps to remember again.

So much to contemplate here and that’s the exciting part! It’s all feedback. Feedback to keep choosing love & growth 🥹

More Gaps

Ooo gaps you say… let’s look ❤️

➡️List some of the repeating cycles and addictive behaviours you have grappled with in life. For each of them, consider how it acted/acts as a way to fill in the gap⬅️

Gambling: 18yrs-35yrs
~ it was what my family did so I did
~ it was considered as fun
~ spend big, hit big and maybe reward big
~ spending a lot in short time
~ disappointed and had to adjust bills, food & what I said yes to when didn’t win
~ thinking it’s the easy way out to get money
~ results now and then however more often no wins or less than what I had before walking in

GAPS: perhaps I didn’t know my worth? What I could offer if I didn’t have money?

Was it a way to seek more connection from family?

Did I think it was the only way on how I could then start to save?

Gaps,

Let’s keep with finances 😎🙃

• So I thought if I had a higher salary then I could save more,

However I was really unhappy in that job and didn’t save.

• I thought if I had a job that paid me weekly, then I can budget easier and save however that didn’t work.
• I thought if I had a job that paid me monthly, then surely I can save better… not quite.
• I thought if I created an intention on why/what would savings mean to me then I could save.

However still no luck, even though it was tied to buying a home that we love and starting a family.

So what’s the link to this addiction of gambling, changing jobs, not saving?

~ ooo remembering my radiance

Do I think I need money to have joy?
~ no, I am joy and opportunities are now flowing

Do I think I have to buy a home in order to be proud of our home?
~ no, I am already proud and now I am allowing and receiving abundance

Do I think I need money to start a family?
~ This is a beautiful question, and I would say, planning for a family I would create a savings nest until we are in alignment to start a family

Activity: on one way I find truth

If I was to draw a circle 🟢 and list repeating cycles and addictive behaviours.

Then draw another circle 🟠 and list any other gaps or words that come up first while looking at the green circle:

• worth
• success
• successful
• acknowledgment
• a place for me
• belonging

Then drew another circle 🔵 and ask what is the gap?

~ Ooooofffff “not taking responsibility for my emotions, thoughts & behaviours and not seeing/remembering my truth” 🔥

~Awwww me, this journey is remembering who I am and being proud of who I am.

~I am actually so proud of myself 🦁

~I am so grateful for my awareness and how open and willing I am to lovingly discover my truth with an open heart ❤️

~I love me and I love others for being them and I love the world for being the world 🌍

My truth was the gap 🥹🥰

~And now I remember ~ nothing can stop me for creating and shining my love & light in the world 😍🎉

~They were just thoughts and beliefs and I was stuck in the same mindset of not owing my actual truth.

Awww I’m so happy 🥹

~I feel lighter and this addiction was just a pattern showing up over and over again for me to remember.

I feel free and I am golden radiance 👑🌟 so I’m not afraid anymore to shine my truth xx

Further contemplations

This question

➡️Contemplate Gene Key 24 through the lens of Richard Rudd’s piano analogy, where we sit down at the piano everyday of our lives and there is an infinite number of songs we can play, yet we seem to play the same tunes over and over and over again.⬅️

Is it comfort,

Is it expression,

Is it saftey.

For me if I imagine playing the piano for the first time I believe I would;

~ connect to my beautiful piano with cute rituals of love first haha
~ learn the keys and sounds
~ learn some songs
~ be with the sounds

Then I would do the same until I can feel my body playing the entire song without need to look at keys/notes.

What would I do then?

I would create my own ✨

I would see how I could incorporate mindfulness for others…

Not sure how/what that would look like however I can see myself grounded in the garden playing magical sounds for the little birdies to sing along with 🥰

So what does this mean with my Radiance 24 & line 5….

I feel that I am the glow of impact and I can just allow myself to flow abundantly into the world as I am and embrace my creativity and expression in all things of life 🫶

Then As I Remembered this, I could see the way I communicated with my team changed more openly

Hey Team,

I wanted to share some special words with you.

Sometimes it’s ok to pause, 

Sometimes it’s ok to rest,

Sometimes it ok to not put your hand up,

Sometimes it’s ok to say no or that I just need some space.

Yesterday, this was me.

How I want to lead is to lead from love.

I want to show up when I know I can be at grounded and at peace within so I can guide others to find how they would love to lead too. 

When you start noticing yourself feeling tired, feeling triggered or if your mind is wondering… it’s ok to pause and listen for what you need right now 🫶

I want to create a culture where people feel welcomed, people feel inspired and people feel empowered to create their own leadership style in work, life & play. 

For me, it’s very important to create a safe and meaningful team environment where if you need to pause, need to rest, need to not take on more shifts, events or project work you feel confident in honouring this 🥰

I am here to help guide you and support you and you are also here to help guide me and support me.

That’s the beauty of intentional leadership, it flows in synarchy rhythms.

We all have unique strengths and it’s in testing and playing to find out what they are and they will keep evolving as you experience new experiences and grow every day. 

So sharing some special words, 

I want to create this space for leading with intention, leading with kindness and leading with strategic direction to shape a new way of team work.

And that’s it’s ok to pull back when you need to. 

I did today and I needed to rest ❤️

And by listening to what my body & heart needed, it allowed this beautiful creativity to flow and to express beautiful words of appreciation that I have for you all.

I truly means this,

I appreciate every one of you and I am grateful for working alongside of you.

Please know that I am not perfect, and no one is either~ So it’s ok to test, play and grow. 

Please know that I won’t know all the answers, however I am always willing to find out the answers or to get clarity.

I value kindness and I know each of you does too.

Sharing some special words and if this sparks anything in how you would love to lead too- I would love to hear 🥹

# creating belonging at scale 

# creating a welcoming environment 

# creating kindness & care in our community 

We will keep forgetting, however creating a lifestyle to remember more often is what I’m doing and taking responsibility for my emotions allows myself to pause and receive the gift of love again and my impact.

So The Impact ~ Is Me. My Golden Radiance.

A little gift for you